2 Months Old!

Lily is a little over 2 months old now! It's so crazy how fast time goes- especially between trying to take care of Lily, working, and being a full-time student. I feel like i'm always on the move! I'm looking forward to having a more relaxing summer of working part time, and taking care of Lily. It's so great now that she's "fun". She giggles, and smiles and is just such a happy baby.

I can't believe how much she's changed in the last 2 months, and how much I have changed too. My main focus is now Lily. Before her everything I did was to benefit myself in some way or another. Now, that completely different- Literally every single thing that I do, I do for her. I've never been more motivated to succeed than I am now. My priorities are so much different now too. Family is so, so important to me. I'm closer than ever to both my Mom, and my fiance's family. I think that the biggest change that i've seen in myself is my patience. I've NEVER been a patient person! Now, with Liliana I am so patient. I'm perfectly fine with staying up all night with her while she screams because of a tummy ache, or cuddling with her because she's cold or lonely when I have a list of a billion things to get done. Although I do get annoyed (especially when I'm running on very little sleep!!) everything becomes perfectly fine the moment that she smiles. Every time she smiles it makes every single thing just fine.

Max and Lily

Max and Lily are best friends, and have been from the moment she got home. He is always buy her, runs into her room when she starts crying and has to be right next to whoever holds her (unless it's me or Terence).
He loves to be around her, and I am so excited for the time when she finally is able to play with him!

Recently we were headed back home from visiting our family, Max and Lily were in the backseat. We stopped to get gas and it was raining really hard, I reached back to make sure that Lily's straps were tight enough. When I reached back I felt Max! I looked back and he was just sitting in Lily's carseat with her, just super happy! Lily was pretty happy too, she was trying to grab at his fur! He was sitting inbetween her legs, so she wasn't getting hurt or anything. They both seemed disappointed when I made him move. The whole ride back I had to keep checking that he didn't get back in there with her, which he didn't.

Max is always trying to protect her! To help make sure that he had a good experience with her we did try to prepare. As my pregnancy progressed we slowly started giving him less attention. We did that so the baby wouldn't cause him to lose attention. We also set up the nursery really early so he would have a chance to get used to everything. We tried to change everything so that it would be how it was when the baby arrived. Once I had her we wrapped her up in blankets that either Terence or my Mom would take back to Max so he would get used to her smell. Luckily, everything we did must have worked because they already have such a great bond, I can't wait to see how it changes as Lily gets older!

2 Months Old

I cannot believe it! Liliana is already 2 months old, she has changed and grown so much it's hard to believe that she is the same little baby that I gave birth to two months (and three days) ago! She isn't super active, but she does FINALLY have a personality. She has time where she'll laugh and smile. She loves to sit up! Although we do have to be right there with our hands around her because most of the time she'll fall. I can't wait to watch her keep growing. Each time she does something new I love it and hate it simultaneously. I am so excited to watch her grow, but I want to stay my baby. Although, I don't think I'll have any problems when she starts to hold her bottle, burp herself, and use the toilet!

 Above is one of Lily's newborn pictures, taken when she only 12 hours old.  She was so tiny! 8lbs 4 oz. To the right is a picture taken within the last few days. She is such a happy baby! She is now 10 lbs 14oz.

Baby smiles are so simple, but make such a big impact. After a bad day at work coming home and having her look up at you and just have the biggest, cheesiest, gummy smile on her face is just such a great feeling. It makes you forget all about the bad things that have happened to you.

Sometimes all she'll do is cry. It's so frustrating- especially when you have homework to do and a house to clean. A lot of the time she'll just stop crying, only for a second and look at me and smile, then she'll go back to crying. I like to think of it as her way of apologizing for screaming non-stop. Luckily, this doesn't happen all that often.

School & Lily

     Being a Mom and a student is hard work. I never expected it to be as hard as it is. There have been days where I simply just forget that i'm enrolled in classes, others where  I just don't have the time or energy. I tried to prevent this from happening by making a schedule for each week of the semester. Up until this week I did pretty good staying  on track. This week changed everything, I'm not really sure why everything changed but it has been ten times harder trying to remember to do homework. The only thing that has changed recently is my attempt at losing weight. I think I may be doing too much, but there isn't really anything I can do about it.

       I got really lucky this week, a few assignments were pushed back. Others I was able to turn in late. To anyone doing a lot I would really recommend getting a planner and sitting down with your class schedules and planning out what is due when. I try to schedule specific days to work on larger projects, but since most of them are groups it can be hard to actually do that. That schedule is what has helped kept me afloat this semester. It hasn't been easy, but I have my motivation whenever I look at my daughter. Everything I do is for her, and to help provide her with the best life I can.

       I encourage anyone who wants to go back to school to do it. I almost didn't take any classes this semester and I really think that would have started a pattern of me saying "I'll go back next semester". The sooner you start, the sooner you'll finish. All parents have the perfect motivation- their child. It's not always easy, but I know that it will be worth it.